Wow, it's hard to fathom how much has happened and shifted since the last time I posted on this blog. I can for certain say that I have experienced many miracles. I was invited to participate in Bhakti Fest representing the Prop 37 campaign to label GMO's and was oh so grateful to attend!! There was so much magic and love that week in the desert. Maybe ecstatic bliss is a better way to put it. I made many new, and wonderful friends from around the country but particularly L.A. that welcomed me into their hearts & tribes. As I had been feeling called to spend some time in the city of angels, meeting my new family set the stage for me to make the transition from San Diego. In the last 3 weeks since I arrived at the end of September, I've been gifted the experience of my first Ayahuasca ceremony which was the most amazingly beautiful, heart opening experience I've ever had, met Marianne Williamson and was gifted by her a signed copy of her book Return to Love, I attended Agape for the first time and got to wish Ricky Byers Beckwith a happy birthday with a big hug, got invited to help with several higher consciousness events that I wanted to attend but wasn't sure how because of cost, and lastly the biggest miracle of them all- I was offered a beautiful, furnished apartment in the heart of Santa Monica, 7 blocks from the ocean, that I get to stay in by myself for the time being in return for a bit of gardening and house work. I feel so incredibly blessed to say the least.
This has been a most transformative time. I'd like to tell you a story about how one seemingly awful encounter with someone ended up shifting my perception radically. As I've written about before on this blog, most of this past year I have been what a lot of my friends like to call "on tour". Basically, that means I've been traveling about, with no home base- camping out of cars or sleeping on friends couches. I've done this as a means to devote much of my energy to my inner spiritual work. Feeling I couldn't possibly hold down a normal job while doing this much healing from all my past trauma. And I am glad that I honored myself for being brave enough to do this, because it hasn't been easy. The last few months I spent in San Diego I was extremely uncomfortable, with little money to buy food or put gas in the truck that was loaned to me. I was very lucky to have some amazing friends who offered up their bathrooms and kitchens to me so I could sometimes feel some sense of normalcy. One day, while the truck was parked outside my dear friend Katie's house (where I had a key and frequented mostly) I received an angry note saying I couldn't park there on the street and that the neighbor was going to have the truck towed if I continued to do so. Knowing that I hadn't broken any laws, as the car had been there less than a day, I decided I wasn't going to let this person bully me out of the neighborhood. I told Katie about the note and she warned me that it was one of the older, crankier guys on the street and that he had caused a lot of drama for people before by letting the air out of there tires and what not, so not to do anything to upset him.
Fortunately, a friend invited me to house sit for a couple weeks so the truck was out of his sight for a while but then finally came the time for me to park on the street again. I could feel there was going to be a confrontation, and sure enough as I was sitting inside the camper organizing my stuff, he came out and approached the vehicle. I opened the door and immediately he unleashed on me. As I had already decided, I wasn't going to let him scare me away. But I also wasn't going to lower my vibration to engage with him. As he tried to tell me why I couldn't be there and how I wasn't "contributing" anything to the community, I stood my ground with firm conviction and at the same time I blasted him with so much love that he eventually got frustrated that his approach wasn't working and he stormed off. I closed the door to my humble little home and immediately burst into tears. I was frustrated that I had created such an imbalance for myself. I wanted so badly to share love and joy with everyone I encountered, and yet I had sacrificed so much of myself in the process that I was struggling to survive. I didn't want to be homeless anymore and I definitely didn't want to be treated like an outcast by the people in the community I was wanting to serve. After my crying session was over, I decided I didn't want to be in the crankster's energy vicinity anymore and got out to move the truck. But to my surprise he was waiting for me. He called me over and before he could even see my tear stained cheeks, started to apologize for his behavior. He shared a bit of his story, and I shared mine. There was such quick energy clearing and heart healing on both parts that by the end of our conversation he was offering to let me use his shower and help me find work. But that was only the beginning....
We started to build a friendship and instead of trying to push me out of the neighborhood now, he started to keep a watch out over me. One day he even brought me and my friend a really nice bottle of wine. But it was the conversation that we had right before I left town that really rocked my world. He started off by telling me that somehow I had really gotten under his skin- something he prided himself on as being almost impossible. After all, this was an old vietnam war vet whose shell was tough as steel and had grown up with enough money and power to get his way with whatever he wanted. And yet, somehow little ol' me with nothing but the power of the love in my heart sparked something in this man that he could not ignore or forget. After some dancing around the subject, he told me about his daughter and the relationship she's been in with a man who is essentially abusive to her. My new friend confessed to me that he was ready to call up a couple of his old Hell's Angels buddies to go to his house and hurt him- badly. The words he used to describe what he wanted done to this guy almost had me in tears. But then he said something I will never forget, which was that something I had said to him the first day we met made him change his mind about it all, which he admitted was very surprising as he considers himself to be a man of action and apparently that was how he was used to getting things done. I could hardly believe what I was hearing. This man was telling me that something I said had such great impact that it actually helped to keep someone from potentially losing their life. In that moment, I was grateful for all of the perceived struggles of the past year because it was those experiences that had brought me to the place of knowing that I could overcome fear with the power of LOVE.
And with that great leap forward, I am now ready to start offering my Divine gifts of service in the form of being a clear channel for Source to express through me in order to facilitate healing for others. I am now in the process of creating a new project called The Let's Love One Another Experiment. Here is some info. about it and how you can get involved. Thank you all for your continued love and support. Blessings.
My claim, or hypothesis for The Let's Love One Another Experiment is if we set our intention upon creating sacred space for heart healing to occur by utilizing various healing modalities such as guided meditations, sound, breath work, sacred geometry, mandalas, plant medicine ceremony, ho'oponopono, gratitude, prayer and any other way Source chooses to express through us, we can effectively increase the amount of love we feel for ourselves and in turn, one another. So in true experiment form, this is a trial and error procedure. It is bound to get a little messy and I can guarantee there will be plenty of tears shed along the way. All that is asked of you in order to participate in this experiment is that you enter into it with an open heart, recruit your friends, and check back in with us from time to time to share your experiences. So let's delve into the unknown cavernous regions of our heart space with the intention to shed light upon the darkest of corners and the courage to remember our Divine truth.
My vision is to take this experiment with me on the road and hold space at festivals, yoga studios, spiritual centers, school campuses, parks, farmers markets and anywhere else I am invited to connect with open hearts. If you are a {heART}ist that is interested in joining forces in light and love- please email me at letsloveoneanotherexperiment@gmail.com
If you live on the west side of LA and feel I could share my gifts with you in some way, I am available for individual heart healing work as well on a donation {a.k.a. love offering} basis.
To donate to this project please visit me at: http://www.gofundme.com/1ec8p8
This has been a most transformative time. I'd like to tell you a story about how one seemingly awful encounter with someone ended up shifting my perception radically. As I've written about before on this blog, most of this past year I have been what a lot of my friends like to call "on tour". Basically, that means I've been traveling about, with no home base- camping out of cars or sleeping on friends couches. I've done this as a means to devote much of my energy to my inner spiritual work. Feeling I couldn't possibly hold down a normal job while doing this much healing from all my past trauma. And I am glad that I honored myself for being brave enough to do this, because it hasn't been easy. The last few months I spent in San Diego I was extremely uncomfortable, with little money to buy food or put gas in the truck that was loaned to me. I was very lucky to have some amazing friends who offered up their bathrooms and kitchens to me so I could sometimes feel some sense of normalcy. One day, while the truck was parked outside my dear friend Katie's house (where I had a key and frequented mostly) I received an angry note saying I couldn't park there on the street and that the neighbor was going to have the truck towed if I continued to do so. Knowing that I hadn't broken any laws, as the car had been there less than a day, I decided I wasn't going to let this person bully me out of the neighborhood. I told Katie about the note and she warned me that it was one of the older, crankier guys on the street and that he had caused a lot of drama for people before by letting the air out of there tires and what not, so not to do anything to upset him.
Fortunately, a friend invited me to house sit for a couple weeks so the truck was out of his sight for a while but then finally came the time for me to park on the street again. I could feel there was going to be a confrontation, and sure enough as I was sitting inside the camper organizing my stuff, he came out and approached the vehicle. I opened the door and immediately he unleashed on me. As I had already decided, I wasn't going to let him scare me away. But I also wasn't going to lower my vibration to engage with him. As he tried to tell me why I couldn't be there and how I wasn't "contributing" anything to the community, I stood my ground with firm conviction and at the same time I blasted him with so much love that he eventually got frustrated that his approach wasn't working and he stormed off. I closed the door to my humble little home and immediately burst into tears. I was frustrated that I had created such an imbalance for myself. I wanted so badly to share love and joy with everyone I encountered, and yet I had sacrificed so much of myself in the process that I was struggling to survive. I didn't want to be homeless anymore and I definitely didn't want to be treated like an outcast by the people in the community I was wanting to serve. After my crying session was over, I decided I didn't want to be in the crankster's energy vicinity anymore and got out to move the truck. But to my surprise he was waiting for me. He called me over and before he could even see my tear stained cheeks, started to apologize for his behavior. He shared a bit of his story, and I shared mine. There was such quick energy clearing and heart healing on both parts that by the end of our conversation he was offering to let me use his shower and help me find work. But that was only the beginning....
We started to build a friendship and instead of trying to push me out of the neighborhood now, he started to keep a watch out over me. One day he even brought me and my friend a really nice bottle of wine. But it was the conversation that we had right before I left town that really rocked my world. He started off by telling me that somehow I had really gotten under his skin- something he prided himself on as being almost impossible. After all, this was an old vietnam war vet whose shell was tough as steel and had grown up with enough money and power to get his way with whatever he wanted. And yet, somehow little ol' me with nothing but the power of the love in my heart sparked something in this man that he could not ignore or forget. After some dancing around the subject, he told me about his daughter and the relationship she's been in with a man who is essentially abusive to her. My new friend confessed to me that he was ready to call up a couple of his old Hell's Angels buddies to go to his house and hurt him- badly. The words he used to describe what he wanted done to this guy almost had me in tears. But then he said something I will never forget, which was that something I had said to him the first day we met made him change his mind about it all, which he admitted was very surprising as he considers himself to be a man of action and apparently that was how he was used to getting things done. I could hardly believe what I was hearing. This man was telling me that something I said had such great impact that it actually helped to keep someone from potentially losing their life. In that moment, I was grateful for all of the perceived struggles of the past year because it was those experiences that had brought me to the place of knowing that I could overcome fear with the power of LOVE.
And with that great leap forward, I am now ready to start offering my Divine gifts of service in the form of being a clear channel for Source to express through me in order to facilitate healing for others. I am now in the process of creating a new project called The Let's Love One Another Experiment. Here is some info. about it and how you can get involved. Thank you all for your continued love and support. Blessings.
My claim, or hypothesis for The Let's Love One Another Experiment is if we set our intention upon creating sacred space for heart healing to occur by utilizing various healing modalities such as guided meditations, sound, breath work, sacred geometry, mandalas, plant medicine ceremony, ho'oponopono, gratitude, prayer and any other way Source chooses to express through us, we can effectively increase the amount of love we feel for ourselves and in turn, one another. So in true experiment form, this is a trial and error procedure. It is bound to get a little messy and I can guarantee there will be plenty of tears shed along the way. All that is asked of you in order to participate in this experiment is that you enter into it with an open heart, recruit your friends, and check back in with us from time to time to share your experiences. So let's delve into the unknown cavernous regions of our heart space with the intention to shed light upon the darkest of corners and the courage to remember our Divine truth.
My vision is to take this experiment with me on the road and hold space at festivals, yoga studios, spiritual centers, school campuses, parks, farmers markets and anywhere else I am invited to connect with open hearts. If you are a {heART}ist that is interested in joining forces in light and love- please email me at letsloveoneanotherexperiment@gmail.com
If you live on the west side of LA and feel I could share my gifts with you in some way, I am available for individual heart healing work as well on a donation {a.k.a. love offering} basis.
To donate to this project please visit me at: http://www.gofundme.com/1ec8p8
