Thursday, December 12, 2013
Tuesday, October 1, 2013
Here I am....
5,000 miles is a long way to go when you're chasing the memory of home. Last I saw Perche Creek and limestone walls I hardly knew myself as Spirit. The pines stood tall against the cold, gray skies and the air hung heavy with sorrow.
Now I sit on this island in the ocean of peace, daydreaming of a family I hardly know. With moonstone 'round my finger and the medicine drum by my side, I feel I have come so far since then. This love now has a name and she goes by Little Feet.
And oh so far I thought I had gone only to see clearly now I've come full circle. In the dreamland you can forget time and space and remember ALL is ONE.
If I know now I am the grand storyteller of this experience, why would I choose to create one more tale of life lived through the filters of pain and fear?
It is time to re-right the story.
I have never been wrong.
I chose this life.
I can see now I am a rainbow bridge, singing loud the song of love for all to hear.
I headed west so I could forget the pain. And now I find myself longing to travel east so I can heal it.
All this time I thought I was running from the harsh winters and a family that didn't love me. But now I see it was my frightened heart I was trying to escape.
There is so much love to share- no need to be afraid for it is the only thing that is real.
Let these illusions of separation be purified by the radiant sun of our sacred heart fire.
Oh hummingbird, Divine messenger to the Gods, please let Spirit know I remember now why I've come here. For this re-union of Earth and Star families will serve to remind ALL of our Divine birthright.
Never knowing where I belonged, no place ever felt like home until I opened my being fully to love, and then realized I would never long for home again.
It's funny to think back to the me I was at 16- a midwestern girl with a pocket full of crystals, meditating with Ravi Shankar playing in the background and a copy of Be Here Now at my side.
How did I fool myself into believing I had to go anywhere?
Now, nearly two decades later I find myself in an eerily similar state, with the plucking of Sitar strings stirring these feelings of nostalgia and I feel I'm finally ready to go home.
Now I sit on this island in the ocean of peace, daydreaming of a family I hardly know. With moonstone 'round my finger and the medicine drum by my side, I feel I have come so far since then. This love now has a name and she goes by Little Feet.
And oh so far I thought I had gone only to see clearly now I've come full circle. In the dreamland you can forget time and space and remember ALL is ONE.
If I know now I am the grand storyteller of this experience, why would I choose to create one more tale of life lived through the filters of pain and fear?
It is time to re-right the story.
I have never been wrong.
I chose this life.
I can see now I am a rainbow bridge, singing loud the song of love for all to hear.
I headed west so I could forget the pain. And now I find myself longing to travel east so I can heal it.
All this time I thought I was running from the harsh winters and a family that didn't love me. But now I see it was my frightened heart I was trying to escape.
There is so much love to share- no need to be afraid for it is the only thing that is real.
Let these illusions of separation be purified by the radiant sun of our sacred heart fire.
Oh hummingbird, Divine messenger to the Gods, please let Spirit know I remember now why I've come here. For this re-union of Earth and Star families will serve to remind ALL of our Divine birthright.
Never knowing where I belonged, no place ever felt like home until I opened my being fully to love, and then realized I would never long for home again.
It's funny to think back to the me I was at 16- a midwestern girl with a pocket full of crystals, meditating with Ravi Shankar playing in the background and a copy of Be Here Now at my side.
How did I fool myself into believing I had to go anywhere?
Now, nearly two decades later I find myself in an eerily similar state, with the plucking of Sitar strings stirring these feelings of nostalgia and I feel I'm finally ready to go home.
Friday, September 20, 2013
Healing through Love
I am feeling so grateful to finally know I am living in alignment with my Soul's purpose. Sharing this light frequency with all who are ready is my great honor and I am so thankful to be living in an environment in which I feel fully supported in this work. Thank you for your continued love and support. I'm so excited to continue sharing heart space with you. Many blessings, love and aloha~~~
Wednesday, July 31, 2013
Gregg Braden: The Key to True Harmony
Rather than asking: "What can I get from the reality that exists?" Instead ask "What can I give to the reality that's emerging?"
Monday, July 29, 2013
Jai ma!
Wednesday, July 3, 2013
Tuesday, July 2, 2013
Four Laws of Creation- Bashar
*You exist- you always have and always will. Your form may change but you can never cease to exist- relax.
*The one is the all and the all are the one. Creation is made of the creator.
*What you put out is what you get back. Vibrational frequency is physical reality reflected back to you- must change internal state to see external change.
*Change is the only constant and everything changes except the first three laws.
*The one is the all and the all are the one. Creation is made of the creator.
*What you put out is what you get back. Vibrational frequency is physical reality reflected back to you- must change internal state to see external change.
*Change is the only constant and everything changes except the first three laws.
Sunday, June 30, 2013
Saturday, June 29, 2013
Friday, June 28, 2013
These books are changing my life right now
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| Exploring Atlantis by Dr. Frank Alper |
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| Sedona: Beyond the Vortex- Richard Dannelley |
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| The Mists of Avalon- Marion Zimmer Bradley |
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| Bringers of the Dawn- Barbara Marciniak |
Thursday, June 27, 2013
Sacred Knowledge of Vibration and the Power of Human Emotion
Thursday, June 20, 2013
Jah bless
Aloha sweet friends. Sending out cosmic waves of aloha rainbow bliss across the ocean of Peace straight into your heart chakra! I just finished making some awesomely spicy raw chocolate and I'm jacked enough on caffeine to finally get back into this blog. I'm setting the intention right now to share my heart wanderings with you more often than I have been in past months. I recognize that I often take way too much time trying to carefully articulate my thoughts in order to share them and it slows the flow. One of the patterns I've been working to shift lately is my challenge with speaking my truth in the moment when it matters most, rather than hours or days later. This NOW moment is it. We have to honor and love ourselves enough to speak our truth, regardless of how it might be received by others. So, I'm going to apply that with this blog starting now.
This past month I have been in quite the funk. I came back to Maui after spending 3 weeks in LA where I was blessed to hold space for a new spiritual center that opened in the heart of Venice Beach. When I came back to the island I was very fortunate to have a friend who needed a house sitter and so, for the first time in almost a year I have a living space all to myself. I hadn't realized how little alone time I've had this past year and of course, that set the stage for some deep fears to creep up that I had been putting off dealing with.
Fear is such an interesting concept. It is a mental construct that we create that is based in complete illusion! There is nothing to fear, for LOVE is all there is! And yet, it feels so completely real when it has its tight grip on our minds- wreaking havoc on our energetic and physical bodies. This month the fear that I've been working to release is the fear of being attacked. Being home by myself has not been easy. When I was a child burglars broke into my home and held me and my parents at gun point for hours on end until they finally assaulted my dad and then fled. This, combined with some abuse I endured in early childhood has haunted me my whole life. Needless to say, it has been a challenge to feel comfortable being home alone at night. Of course, when I am travelling my walls tend to go up and strangely enough I have a much easier time relaxing. But when I am stationed in one place for long enough, those walls start to dissolve and I am confronted once again with this pressing issue.
I say this because I believe it has been a huge block in my life that I haven't wanted to deal with until now. So I started to really look at it. What would happen if someone were to break in my house now? How would I respond? I believe I have incarnated many times on this planet and so I see death as a beautiful transition in returning home. So at the very worst someone breaks in, attacks me and takes my life. Well, I believe my soul will choose when it is ready to take that magical carpet ride and so even if this scenario did happen, it would be of my creation, and I completely trust the guidance of my soul to navigate this Earth plane in whichever way is for my highest good and evolution. So what is there to really fear? Nothing. I realize that I've been ignoring dealing with this my whole life but now that I've finally turned to face it- it's gone. I had this awakening one night before bed and when I drifted off to sleep, I had a very powerful lucid dream that helped me to really know just how I would respond. In my dream I awoke to find a white dog (which is symbolic for Guardian, of which I know I have many in the angelic realms) standing above me and I jumped up startled. I led the dog outside and then ran up the stairs to talk to my sister (of which I have none). I could hear her singing in the bathroom and as I hit the top of the stairs I ran into a man who was about to enter the bathroom and attack my unsuspecting sister. Normally, I would have woken up immediately in a dream like this, but now I was able to confront the man in a stern voice and tell him to leave and I yelled for my brother to bring the dogs for protection. The man backed down and the dream was over. I woke up, heart pounding, and thanked myself and my psyche for doing such a great job at managing my fear, and grateful I could clear it in dreamland rather than having to physically manifest the situation in order to confront it. Wow, hard to believe it has taken me more than 30 years to create this peace for myself. But every experience builds upon the last and until now I did not have the tools in my belt to handle a job of this magnitude.
I thank Great Spirit for allowing me to move forward now in my life so that I may continue to expand and express my love in the myriad of ways that bring me so much joy. LOVE is my truth and I KNOW as long as I live in accordance with love rather than fear, I will always thrive. Jah bless.
This past month I have been in quite the funk. I came back to Maui after spending 3 weeks in LA where I was blessed to hold space for a new spiritual center that opened in the heart of Venice Beach. When I came back to the island I was very fortunate to have a friend who needed a house sitter and so, for the first time in almost a year I have a living space all to myself. I hadn't realized how little alone time I've had this past year and of course, that set the stage for some deep fears to creep up that I had been putting off dealing with.
Fear is such an interesting concept. It is a mental construct that we create that is based in complete illusion! There is nothing to fear, for LOVE is all there is! And yet, it feels so completely real when it has its tight grip on our minds- wreaking havoc on our energetic and physical bodies. This month the fear that I've been working to release is the fear of being attacked. Being home by myself has not been easy. When I was a child burglars broke into my home and held me and my parents at gun point for hours on end until they finally assaulted my dad and then fled. This, combined with some abuse I endured in early childhood has haunted me my whole life. Needless to say, it has been a challenge to feel comfortable being home alone at night. Of course, when I am travelling my walls tend to go up and strangely enough I have a much easier time relaxing. But when I am stationed in one place for long enough, those walls start to dissolve and I am confronted once again with this pressing issue.
I say this because I believe it has been a huge block in my life that I haven't wanted to deal with until now. So I started to really look at it. What would happen if someone were to break in my house now? How would I respond? I believe I have incarnated many times on this planet and so I see death as a beautiful transition in returning home. So at the very worst someone breaks in, attacks me and takes my life. Well, I believe my soul will choose when it is ready to take that magical carpet ride and so even if this scenario did happen, it would be of my creation, and I completely trust the guidance of my soul to navigate this Earth plane in whichever way is for my highest good and evolution. So what is there to really fear? Nothing. I realize that I've been ignoring dealing with this my whole life but now that I've finally turned to face it- it's gone. I had this awakening one night before bed and when I drifted off to sleep, I had a very powerful lucid dream that helped me to really know just how I would respond. In my dream I awoke to find a white dog (which is symbolic for Guardian, of which I know I have many in the angelic realms) standing above me and I jumped up startled. I led the dog outside and then ran up the stairs to talk to my sister (of which I have none). I could hear her singing in the bathroom and as I hit the top of the stairs I ran into a man who was about to enter the bathroom and attack my unsuspecting sister. Normally, I would have woken up immediately in a dream like this, but now I was able to confront the man in a stern voice and tell him to leave and I yelled for my brother to bring the dogs for protection. The man backed down and the dream was over. I woke up, heart pounding, and thanked myself and my psyche for doing such a great job at managing my fear, and grateful I could clear it in dreamland rather than having to physically manifest the situation in order to confront it. Wow, hard to believe it has taken me more than 30 years to create this peace for myself. But every experience builds upon the last and until now I did not have the tools in my belt to handle a job of this magnitude.
I thank Great Spirit for allowing me to move forward now in my life so that I may continue to expand and express my love in the myriad of ways that bring me so much joy. LOVE is my truth and I KNOW as long as I live in accordance with love rather than fear, I will always thrive. Jah bless.
Wednesday, March 6, 2013
Aloha love
Blessings dear family!
Recognizing my audience has grown exponentially recently, I realize a current update is past due. As always, so much awesomeness and intensity has been squeezed into the span of just a few short months. My last post came during the midst of a very powerful month in L.A. Complete surrender and trust were the themes for that round and the prize for following my guidance and trusting in Great Spirit was even deeper remembrance and recognition of just how powerful us humans are when we set our egos aside and let Jah flow through us unrestricted. In the most vulnerable moment of my life, when I felt lost, exposed and with no one or nowhere to turn and feeling as if I was just going to disintegrate from the sheer velocity of the fall- I finally figured out that I do in fact have wings and they are hummingbird wings at that. It kind of reminds me of that scene from Point Break when Keanu jumped from the plane without a parachute- in that moment he fully surrendered to the Divine plan. And so, after a decade of living in San Diego and avoiding Los Angeles like the plague, I finally dove off the cliff head first, arms stretched wide, and let the city of Angels work her magic on me in a way that fully opened and exposed my raw wounds of fear and lack and left me know where to hide and with no option but to fully love the illusion into dissolution.
After these lessons had been embraced, I was swept north along the California coast with my dear sister Lightning Heart. We had a magical journey lasting several weeks as we meandered through the sweet majestic towns that make up central cali while taking lots of opportunity to sing, meditate, hug trees and circulate love through our hearts and back out to all sentient beings. It was a most healing time as it had been a number of years since I had been up the coast. We arrived in San Fran shortly before Thanksgiving and shared in some beautiful meals with new friends and old. We were considering continuing north to Oregon when we randomly found plane tickets to Maui leaving in two days. My intention had been to be back on island before the Solstice and planetary alignments although I was unsure as to how it would all flow seeing I only had about $20 in my pocket at the time. But oh how miraculous the world is and as mama Maui is known to do- she brought me home just in the nick of time. Stepping off the plane was one of the sweetest sensations- I've never felt so energetically loved by a place as I do here. Walking on the beach my second day I reached down to instinctively pull something deep out of the sand that turned out to be a Cowrie shell as big as the palm of my hand! Can I just reinforce again how incredible life is!! There is so much beauty all around us to behold if only we can attune our perception to focus on the miracles that are constantly unfolding in our unique versions of reality. So once again I have been drawn back to the Aina to rest and recharge my batteries and I am so grateful for this time to heal and transmute all of the energy I connected with during my travels. Falling asleep on a sailboat in the Lahaina harbor last week I could hear the whales singing me sweet lullabies as I was rocked off to dream land by mama Ocean. This land is powerful and very healing and I am giving myself permission to fully indulge in all she has to offer. Sometimes it is challenging to explain to people what it is exactly that I am doing as there is very little that is tangible to show for all of my hard work, and yet as I continue to receive guidance about how to share and hold the vibration of love in order to raise the collective consciousness, I continue to be supported in the most magnificent ways by the Great Spirit. I have come to a place of peace and acceptance that at this point in my life my work and mission as a world-bridger is in the invisible realms. I've been joking that my spiel when people ask me what I do for a living will be to say that I work in the field of subtle energetics; a.k.a the hyper-dimensional etheric realms where Source resides and guides all actions, thoughts & feelings- where we remember the truth that everything is an expression of LOVE.
So for now I am tucked away in the jungle on a hill top overlooking the ocean of peace, on the slope of Pele's playground of Haleakala. With the love and support of dear friends and open hearts, I am remembering how to sing, play drums, work with medicine, draw and rejoice and dance in order to feed my soul in celebration for this sacred life I am so fortunate to be experiencing. There is so much more to share about the next big piece of this puzzle that I will save it for another post coming soon. Till then my hope is that this ONE giant heart of ours knows just how truly beautiful it is to our creator and that we are all amazing and our own unique colors of the rainbow! Much love and blessings to la familia!
Recognizing my audience has grown exponentially recently, I realize a current update is past due. As always, so much awesomeness and intensity has been squeezed into the span of just a few short months. My last post came during the midst of a very powerful month in L.A. Complete surrender and trust were the themes for that round and the prize for following my guidance and trusting in Great Spirit was even deeper remembrance and recognition of just how powerful us humans are when we set our egos aside and let Jah flow through us unrestricted. In the most vulnerable moment of my life, when I felt lost, exposed and with no one or nowhere to turn and feeling as if I was just going to disintegrate from the sheer velocity of the fall- I finally figured out that I do in fact have wings and they are hummingbird wings at that. It kind of reminds me of that scene from Point Break when Keanu jumped from the plane without a parachute- in that moment he fully surrendered to the Divine plan. And so, after a decade of living in San Diego and avoiding Los Angeles like the plague, I finally dove off the cliff head first, arms stretched wide, and let the city of Angels work her magic on me in a way that fully opened and exposed my raw wounds of fear and lack and left me know where to hide and with no option but to fully love the illusion into dissolution.
After these lessons had been embraced, I was swept north along the California coast with my dear sister Lightning Heart. We had a magical journey lasting several weeks as we meandered through the sweet majestic towns that make up central cali while taking lots of opportunity to sing, meditate, hug trees and circulate love through our hearts and back out to all sentient beings. It was a most healing time as it had been a number of years since I had been up the coast. We arrived in San Fran shortly before Thanksgiving and shared in some beautiful meals with new friends and old. We were considering continuing north to Oregon when we randomly found plane tickets to Maui leaving in two days. My intention had been to be back on island before the Solstice and planetary alignments although I was unsure as to how it would all flow seeing I only had about $20 in my pocket at the time. But oh how miraculous the world is and as mama Maui is known to do- she brought me home just in the nick of time. Stepping off the plane was one of the sweetest sensations- I've never felt so energetically loved by a place as I do here. Walking on the beach my second day I reached down to instinctively pull something deep out of the sand that turned out to be a Cowrie shell as big as the palm of my hand! Can I just reinforce again how incredible life is!! There is so much beauty all around us to behold if only we can attune our perception to focus on the miracles that are constantly unfolding in our unique versions of reality. So once again I have been drawn back to the Aina to rest and recharge my batteries and I am so grateful for this time to heal and transmute all of the energy I connected with during my travels. Falling asleep on a sailboat in the Lahaina harbor last week I could hear the whales singing me sweet lullabies as I was rocked off to dream land by mama Ocean. This land is powerful and very healing and I am giving myself permission to fully indulge in all she has to offer. Sometimes it is challenging to explain to people what it is exactly that I am doing as there is very little that is tangible to show for all of my hard work, and yet as I continue to receive guidance about how to share and hold the vibration of love in order to raise the collective consciousness, I continue to be supported in the most magnificent ways by the Great Spirit. I have come to a place of peace and acceptance that at this point in my life my work and mission as a world-bridger is in the invisible realms. I've been joking that my spiel when people ask me what I do for a living will be to say that I work in the field of subtle energetics; a.k.a the hyper-dimensional etheric realms where Source resides and guides all actions, thoughts & feelings- where we remember the truth that everything is an expression of LOVE.
So for now I am tucked away in the jungle on a hill top overlooking the ocean of peace, on the slope of Pele's playground of Haleakala. With the love and support of dear friends and open hearts, I am remembering how to sing, play drums, work with medicine, draw and rejoice and dance in order to feed my soul in celebration for this sacred life I am so fortunate to be experiencing. There is so much more to share about the next big piece of this puzzle that I will save it for another post coming soon. Till then my hope is that this ONE giant heart of ours knows just how truly beautiful it is to our creator and that we are all amazing and our own unique colors of the rainbow! Much love and blessings to la familia!
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